I had a dream last night and it scared the living hell out of me. I went to bed at 3am after what i thought was a good day. I spent time with a friend we laughed and talked about things that made us feel a little depressed and happy.
Things were going well until i got home. I spent a little time online getting things set up and seeing if everything was they was it was supposed to be.
I got settled into bed and everything went down hill from there. I had a dream that mad me literally jump out of my sleep.
I was working with my friend in a church, but it was not really a church. We were talking and laughing with each other, if anything i can say that maybe, i was a little to happy. There were other people there that i knew but only in the dream not in real life. There was a scene that faded in and out. It was me with my mother suddenly, she was a little older and she kept telling me that she loved me and that she was happy that i did not give up on her. That happened a few times throughout out my dream. I faded back into my friend and i. We where getting a long better than i think we do in real life ( that i think is weird but what ever). We where in my house laughing, playing, and just being happy with each other. There was nothing sexual about it at all, it was just two friends having fun together. I faded back to my mom and it was the same as before nothing new. When i picked back up to my friend and i we were both getting into shady looking car's. He was driving on the side of me making faces and making me laugh ( we both did that back and forth). I was so happy and i thought that was a good thing but what happened next hurt me to my core. Some how we ended up going our separate ways and i was still happy and i had this strange feeling like there was a baby in the back seat of my car but i never really confirmed that. I think i drove for about 10 or 15 min when out of no where a man was standing on the corner in white shoes, blue jeans, a blue and red jersey with numbers on it, and a ear ring in his ear. When i woke up i could still see his face clear as i am alive. He looked at me dead in my eyes and he shot the front end of my car and it exploded with me inside. I could hear the gunshot as if it were right next to my head. I jumped up out of my sleep and i could hardly catch my breath. My heart was beating so fast i thought i was going to have a heart attack. Why would i dream something like this? Why would my friend make me so happy but then i end up dead in the end? We got along fine and i know it did not have anything to do with him, but why would he be the one making me happy and in the end i lost my life? I love my friend and i want him to be happy and i want to be happy also, so that's why i was happy that we were both happy in my dream. My friend is kind, sweet, understanding, and a very good person. He is there for me when i need him, that's the problem why would i associate him with a painful death. What does it mean? is someone going to hurt me and i am not going to be able to come back from it? Is a new love in my life going to put my life in danger? Is my friend going to turn on me and hate me to the point when i feel like i want to die? I don't know what to think, i just want clarity.
-dazed and confused-
