When someone hurts you how do you come back from that? Do you spend more time with friends and family or do you stay in your bed and eat your feelings away? I don't know how to respond to these questions, because if i did i think i would be feeling a little better.
Have you ever had someone to break you to the point when you don't realize that you are a mess? I have and i thought that, because i have not known this person for that long that he did not have the power to rip me in two. I guess i was wrong, because he did. I have loved 4 people and only one of those 4 hurt me but i knew him for years. I knew the good, bad , and ugly. So, i was kid of expecting to get hurt at some point. Don't get me wrong, it still hurt because we were together for so long i had no choice but to be hurt and depressed. The others did not hurt me this bad, because i did not allow myself to be completely open with them. I did and still do love them but in very different ways.
I don't want this to break me and i don't want it to send down to a place where i have not gone in a long time.
I want to get pass this because if i don't my sadness is going to turn to hate and thats something i don't want to happen.
I am going to stay in my bed and eat and pray my emotions away. I am going to watch movies that make me laugh. I am going to get up take a shower and realize that tomorrow is another day for me to be thankful for.
So, if you call me and i am crying, that just means i thought about the person that hurt me. If you call and i sound angry, don't worry it is not because of you.
I don't ever want to give someone power over me that will use it to there advantage.
