All of my friends play an important part in my life weather they are here with me or if they are far away. I love each of them differently and i treat them all different. I guess it is fare, because all my friends treat me differently also. I have a few who treat me like i am a baby and like to do everything for me. I have others who make me do things because they know if i am not pushed i wont do anything. I also have friends who forget that i am a grown woman and not a child, they tend to think i don't know what's going on but i know more than they think. I think there are people who come into your life for a reason and the friends that i have, have made my life a lot more interesting even if they have brought there own drama to my door.
There are also people in my life that i could not help but to be related to, and some of them can drive me mad. I mean is it or is it not bad when you have family that can make you literally ill?There are some people in my family that if i am around them for too long, i want to cut my wrist just to get away from there relentless drama.
I have family members that i would do anything for because we are just that close.My cousins or so overprotective of me, don't get me wrong i love them for that, but it can cause me to keep thing from them. They don't want me to hurt anymore then i have already. I have one cousin in-particular who would hurt anyone and i mean anyone who she thought was using me, mistreating me, or putting their hands on me. I call her my "other mother" even though i am 1 1/2 years older. I cant always tell her what's going on because i don't want her to get her brother (my other cousin who babies me) to do anything crazy. Susan would leave her job to check up on me if she thinks something is in her words "shady" or if she thinks i am hiding something. I love her dearly for that. I think that when i do get married the guy is going to have to talk to her first, thats how protective she is about me.
I have friends and family that i am the same way with. I don't want anyone i love or care about in any way to get hurt, because when they hurt so do i. I am no fighter but if you push me to far you will see what this little lady can do. I have a friend in new york that i have not seen in so long, but we talk everyday. She tells me about her drama and i tell her mine and we just laugh and cry sometimes for hours. I have another friend, but i consider her family because i have known her for 23 years. We talk twice a week about friends, family, work, and our personal lives. I have friends who live in florida who i kind of miss, but not so much were we talk everyday. I love to know that i have friends that i can talk to everyday, because i know that it helps me and it also helps them. I have friends i know i can depend on and i know i have "friends" that don't really care if i leave them or not.
If you want to know something about me it is this, don't be fake, don't hide from me, don't underestimate my ability to figure things out, and don't ignore me. If you do, i will act like i don't know you and you will basically be dead to me.
