change is a good thing.

i think change is a very good thing. i have a lot of things that are changing in my life some have to do with me and some don't, but i must say they are all good. i have one brother who is getting ready to go to first grade and another who is getting ready to start high school (that makes me feel kind of old) but anyway. i have a cousin who is starting collage. i am so proud of her and the young woman she has become. my other cousin has just started a new job and i wish her all the best, because i know when she put her mind to it she can accomplish anything. like i said before change is a very good thing. as for me i am getting ready to move and i will be starting school in the fall, so i guess this means that my play time is over. i also have another friend who is starting school in the fall, so i guess the collage bug is in the air for those of us who has been there and done that. i am sure that for all of us who are starting down a new path in life that things will go just fine, as long as we have faith and believe that we can do anything we put our minds to it. to all of you who are starting new things or who are thinking of starting something new i wish you all the best, because i want everyone i love to have the life that they want and deserve.
all my love to all my loves-xoxoxo

take time!

take the time to tell someone you care about how you feel about them.
take the time to find your self and never let anyone tell you who you are and who you should be.
take the time to find out where your heart is and how you are feeling about things in your life.
take the time to spend time with the people who you care about because they might not always be there.
take the time to heal your self from what ever pain you might be going through.
take the time to realize that your true love might be right in front of you and you don't even know it, because you are closed to the possibility of it.
take the time to pray, because the power of prayer is a great thing.
take time to realize that you are worth more than you think you are.
take the time to realize that what you have in life is special and something that you have worked hard for, and never put your self down for not having more than you do.
love your self and be a good friend to those you are close with and never take them for granted, because a true friend is hard to find. keep god in your life because with out him we are just us. life is hard enough so before you make any choices take the time to think about them.
-xoxoxo

why do people ask questions that they really dont want the answers to???

i think i had a giant question mark on my head, because s person that i know decided to ask me a lot of questions that i felt like they had no business asking. i am a adult in every way that counts and i think that somethings i have the right to keep to my self. i don't know why i was asked these personal questions, but i told this person that i thought they should mind their own business and leave my personal life alone. i don't mind answering these questions if certain people ask me, but not everyone. i have a few people that i tell everything to and i have a few that i only share certain things with. my life is complicated and yes i have made a few mistakes that i wish i could take back, but i cant. i think that i have learned from the things that i have done wrong and i have grown from them also. i know who i can trust with my deepest secrets and who i cant. i know who i can count on and who i cant count on. if you are in my life you can feel free to ask me anything you want, and i promise to give you an honest answer no matter what the question is. if you are not in my life in that way don't ask me personal questions, because i will probably ignore you. if you are sitting there wondering if you are one of the people who can ask me anything, well then you are not someone i trust very much. if you are wondering what else you can ask me and know that you will not get yelled at , well than you are one of the few that i trust with my heart and soul. questions can hurt if you get an answer that you don't want. once you ask a question, be careful because you can not take it back. so, go ahead ask me something and see what happens.
-xoxoxo

my thoughts about ?

our lives are so amazing, everyday everything is changing and nothing is staying the same. when i see the light in the eyes of a child it is so pure that i miss it sometimes. we are so jaded as adults to the gossip of the what others are saying about us. that we forget that we only have one life to live. so,why cant we move pass the drama? our eyes should be open, our hearts should be full of love for one another, and our hands and arms should be stretched out so that others know that we are there when they need us. some of us cant help but let what others say make us feel bad, but i think that has more to do with our personalities than the way we think. i am a soft spoken person and sometimes i let the words of others hurt me, when i know i should just ignore them all together. i have been told this by many people and i think i will start to do what they tell me.
as i get older i realized, that the things that i did not appreciate as a child, i wish i would have. i was free of complications and free of making decisions. i had to depend on my parents to guide me in the right direction in life, even though they might not have done the right things them selves. i think the way we are raised has a lot to do with how we deal with stressful situations as adults. i miss the innocence, freedom, care free love, and the not knowing of what was going to happen next.
as adults we are worried about bills, our jobs, the person we are dating, when or if we are going to marry, and if and when we want to have children. we are also worried about some of the craziest things, because i think we have to much time on our hands. i think we for get to have fun, to go out and play, because you are never too old to play, to build a stronger relationship with god, and to make sure we are doing something to make our lives worth living.
-xoxoxo
in my arms- by plumb

this is a re-post for those who did not get it.

ok. i am feeling a little better, but i still have a little anger pint up in me. i took a walk with a friend today and that helped me calm down just a little. i tried to pray about it but that really did not help, because i kept getting interrupted by the person that pissed me off. i tried to swing my anger away at the park by the lake and i think that helped a little. when i decided to go home and did somethings around the house to help clear my head a little more, but i think what really helped me was knowing that if i don't forgive or forget i can not move on with my life or my day. i am the kind of person that once you cross me it is hard to get back on my good side. i think i can forget what that person said to me but i don't think i can forgive, because it really hurt me and as you all know i don't like to be hurt. so. it is now 1:24 am and i have listened to my sad and depressing music and i read my bible and i think tonight i can go to bed knowing that i am the bigger person. my feeling were hurt by someone who claims to love and care for me and i don't know how i could ever forget that, but i will do my very best to forgive. i just have to remember what i tell other and do it for my self and that is, if you don't love your self no one else will and if you don't like your self no one will either, i think those are my words to live by. i love my family and i love my friends very much and i don't want to lose any of them. i want everyone to be happy and find their own little place in this world, all i ask, is that you do it with an open heart and mind and realize that words do hurt. if the person deserves it than fine but make sure they do, because once you say something it is hard to take back.
-xoxoxo