one week

OK. i got a call from an old friend of mine. i have not talked to her in about 6 months and i was very surprised because when she does call me it is always on the weekends. she is a very interesting girl. she is one out of my 6 friends that i still talk to from my Disney days. she called me because she said that she had a very strange question to ask me. all kinds of things started going through my head, but the question that she asked me was not even on the list. she asked me, what would i do if i had a week to live? i asked her why did she want to know and she told me that someone had asked her the question and she thought that she would ask some of her friends. i paused for a minute and thought about it and i gave her my answer. so, i thought i would do the same to my friends. i want you all to think about it and tell me what you would do if you had a week to live. i know it might seem a little morbid, but what can i say the strangest things intrigue me. i will give you my answer so you all don't think i am chickening out.
if i had a week to live what would i do?
1. i would spend as much time with the people that i loved and made sure they knew how i felt about them.
2. i would tell the people that i have hurt in the past that i am sorry for any pain that i have caused them.
3. i would prepare myself mind, body, and soul.
4. i would write letters to tell people the things that i could not tell them while i was with them.
5. i would pray to god to forgive me for all the things that i have done wrong.
6. i would not cry,i would not be angry at god, and lastly i would not think about the things that i have not had the chance to do in my life, because really whats the point.
there you go, if i had a week to live those are the things i would and would not do.
i hope this does not make any of you sad or think i am trying to bring you down. it was just a question that i was asked and it just got me thinking.
-xoxoxo

just thinking about life.

Have you ever had one of those night when you could not fall asleep? well i am having one of those nights tonight. i don't know if it is because i have a lot on my mind or if it is because i know that i have a very busy weekend ahead of me. i have these random thoughts floating in my head and that only really happens when things are getting way to complicated. don't get me wrong, i am not saying that i cant handle it or that i think i am doing too much. it just seems like all of a sudden my life is going to be really busy and i just did not expect it. i love when i have things to do and i am not counting work or school. i mean i love doing things when i know i will have fun, meet new people, and maybe even learn something new. i like taking life day by day because you will never know where you are going to be at the end of the day. i also think that doing something like talking with friends, going for a walk, or a drive gives us purpose. why just stay at home in bed when you know you could be out trying something for the first time or doing something that you love. i also realize that every now and then a good day of rest can do a body good. i think that if you live every day as if it were your last you might just find out who you really are. i also think that you will find that you can do more then you thought you could do. so, i say fill your life with love, realize the power of your own thoughts, and lastly give up on the idea that more is better.
love your self for who you are and never let anyone tell you otherwise.
-xoxoxo

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where do i see myself in 5 years

a friend asked me this and i really don't think i gave a answer that i was happy with. so, i think i will see if i can do that now. i see my self in five yeas done with school for the last time.i want to have a closer relationship with god and one that i know that is truly unshakable. i see myself working a job that i would love and in a place where i would feel at peace. i see my self settling down and starting a family of my own. i know i want to be married and i know that i love kids so i want to at least have one of my own. i don't know if i want to be living in the same city, town, or home. i do know this, i want to be happy and at peace with the person that i love. i want the person that i am with to be happy and what ever he decides that he wants to do then i would be happy to do it as well. all i aks is that he keeps his wants and desires reasonable.
i know that life never turns out the way we want it to and i know that we will make mistakes on the way. i just hope through out all the mistakes we make in relationships, job choices, or anything else, i hope that we learn from them and make better choices in the future. i think i am like most young women, i know what i want and the kind of person i want to be with. i guess my problem is that i keep falling for the wrong ones and doing the wrong things. i have a hard time asking for what i want from people, because i think i have a fear of being told that i cant have what i want. i also think that if i keep my wants to myself then i can keep my heart and mind safe.
i think that this is a much better answer.
-xoxoxo

what is a father?

A father is a man who watches out for his child.
A father is a man who knows when to let the mother take the lead
A father is a man who is kind and caring
A father is a man who knows what to say to make you feel better.
A father is a man who will forgive you for any mistakes you have made or will make.
A father is kind and gentle but at the same time can protect when need be.
A father is a man who can make his son or daughter feel proud to call him dad.
A father is a man who shows his children right from wrong.
A father is a man who cares for his family and the people around him.
A father is the kind of man that will take the time to talk to you even when he is running late.
in the end what i am saying is this. any man can lay down with a woman to make a child, but it takes a real man to stay and help raise that child. it takes a man who is ready to change his life for the sake of the child, so that the child can have the life that he or she deserves.
so, to all the fathers-Happy Fathers Day
-xoxoxo