trust

there are 7 people in my life that i trust with everything that i have. these people mean the world to me and with out them i think i would be lost. some of these people i have known for my entire life and some i have only known for months. i know some of you might think that i am crazy for trusting people that i have only known for months, but when i give someone my trust that means that they have earned it. trust is something that i hold dear to me and it is something that i value. it is almost as important to me as love is. i don't like it when someone tells me who i should and should not trust especially when they have not given me a good enough reason. just because one does not like the other does not and will not change how i feel about the person. i have to have my own reasons and my own doubts about the person in order to know how i should feel and if i should not trust them at all. if you are one of the people that i trust then i don't have to tell you, because you should already know it. i do have friends that i don't trust completely and i don't know if i ever will. i do know this, it i not because i don't want to, it is just my way of sorting out the good from the bad. i don't know where my life is headed or even if it is going to go the way i want it to but i do know this, without god and the people that i trust by my side i will forever be lost.
-xoxoxo
p.s this will be my last blog until my internet is back on in my new place.

untitled

i have been trying to make some hard decisions for my life for the last couple of days. i have asked different friends for their opinions but i know that they can only tell me what they think. i know that it is my life but sometimes a little help from the people that care about you can go along way. i know that they might just say what i want to hear or they might just tell me the truth and not really care about the impact it will have on me. i think that's a very good thing, because a true friend will tell you what is really on their minds. i am the kind of person that likes to be told what to do sometimes. i know that might sound a little juvenile but that's how i am. i know that my judgement about some people can be a little foggy, so i depend on the people that i love to tell me what they think and if they think i am making a mistake. i am the type of person that can give very good advice but for some reason i cant take my own words and use them for myself. i love to help people but i am careful with who i let help me. i am the last person to ask for help even when i know i need it. it is not a pride thing it is just how i am. i have compassion, love, understanding, and a open heart to anyone who wants it. i know that's the biggest problem that i have. i tend to be too open, too nice, and too serving to those who are around me but what can i say that is what makes me happy.
-xoxoxo