This is the real me!

Lately i have been taking a long look at my self and my personality. I don't know if it is because someone told me that i was not being true to myself or was it because it seems like i am not getting what i put out into the world.


Sometimes i feel like i don't fit into the place that i am in right now. i feel like i am living a life that someone else should be living. I love my friends and my family, but sometimes i feel like i am not being the person that i want to be. I feel like i am being someone else to make others happy. When i am at home and alone i feel like i am the only one on the planet and nothing else is even around me. I feel like the people that i let in don't get me and that's ok but sometimes it can feel so lonely. I feel like at times that i am not exceeding the expectations that people have for me and i feel bad about that, because i don't want to let them down. I feel like i have to be this sweet person 24/7 when half the time i wish i could say whats really on my mind with out the fear that i will be disliked. i wish i could be like some people that i know and not give a damn what people think about me. I say that i don't care what people think and i don't depending on who you are and if i care about you and your thoughts.


when i do break down and let people into my world it is hard because they don't always turn out to be the people i think they are. it is hard for me to let people in because i don't want to be hurt or let down. I don't want them to pretend to care when they don't, because that just make s me feel used and makes me want to shut down even more.


when i love, i love fiercely and unconditionally. I am the kind of person that keeps her emotions inside and when i do let them out for you to see, it is only because i believe in you and i trust that you will be there for me when i need you.


who is the real me? I am kind, caring,honest, giving,loving, emotional ( if i know i can trust you), bitchy ( but only if you cross me), and a very good friend. I can keep secrets, because i have a few of my own, and i know when to keep my mouth shut. I have a fear of letting people in but if i do let you in, you should know that it was hard for me to do and i don't do that often. I don't like when people take advantage of my good nature and try to use me for their own sadistic nature. i don't like to be used for anything, but in this world everyone uses everyone for something so i should get use to it.

U want me 2

I heard this song a few days a go and i just fell in love with it. I like how it sounds and the way it makes me feel. So, if you are in love, over love, or just confused by it. i think you would still find a way to love this song.
U Want Me 2-by Sarah mclachan
You walk on by Clueless and so high Following your aimless path away from us You're so far away And what can I say Cause I can't be the one you wanted me to be
So tell me how do you feel It's so confusing If you let it all go, it'll fall apart Do you want me to stay and say I still want you You want me too, don't you?
So what are we saying Our Eden's a failure A made-up story to fit the picture-perfect world The one with "I do"s and I love you And we are made for each other Is forever over now?
And tell me how do you feel It's so confusing If you let it all go, it'll fall apart Do you want me to stay and say I still want you You want me too, don't you?
I hope there's forgiveness In the distance between us Can we make what lies ahead of us a better place to be?
So tell me, how do you feel It's so confusing If you let it all go, it'll fall --- Do you want me to stay and say I still want you You want me too, don't you?