Playing with emotions

It has come to my attention that I am angel. Fine, if I am an angel why do I keep finding devious men? Why can't I find the true love that I want?
I have never had a problem meeting men, I just keep meeting the wrong ones. I know what I want out of a guy and what I don't want, so why can't I find it? Either he is too distant or too close. I want, and I am sure many other women want, a man who is consistant or some where in the middle.
I think I have finally found what I am looking for in a man. He is sweet, kind, honest, and he knows what he wants. He tells me that he wants me and that he wants to be with me, but there is a part of me that is scared of the feelings that he has, because I have been hurt in the past. I am not sure if they are real, but if they are real I hope he is not just playing with my emotions. If he is, I hope he gets what's coming to him. I only have a little faith in men left in me, so I hope this is real.
When men play with our emotions, they just don't know that they are skating on thin ice. Men say that don't like head games but they are the main game players. They say they want honesty but they would not know the truth if it bit them in the ass. They say " I love you " but do they really know what that word means.
I love you means this: unconditional, compassion, willing to help, love with out fault, and being there even if you don't want to be there, I love you simply means, I love you for who you are, not for what you have, orfor what you bring, it means I love you just because you complete me in all ways that count.

Lonelyness and a Prayer

Being lonely can be discribed in two different ways, one meaning not having someone to share your life with, or two not being able to appreciate your own company.
Ask your selves where do you fit, is it one or two?
I am in the first one, because I love myself and I don't need anyone around me to make me feel complete. I do, miss the comany of a man, because let's face it I am human. Sometimes when we are lonely it is because thats how we chose to be, because like me, we all have friends and loved ones we can turn to when we are down. It is just up to us to use the help when we know we have it.
So,look at your life as I look at mine and see how many people you have that you can count on. If you have more than 8 or maybe 5 than you have no reason to feel lonely. You should treasure and love those who make you happy, talkto them when you feel down, or even just sitting next to someone and have them listen to you can do wonders for the soul.
So, if you ever find your self lonely and need a friend, remember my loves if I am around you will never be lonely again. Also remember this if you feel lke life is too hard, remember God is on your side ad he always will be.
Here is a prayer from my lips to gods ears.
May god bless you everyday and keep you safe. May he watch over you as you sleep, travel, or when you are just un aware. May he always be by your side through your darkest hour just as I am with you. May he cast out your fears of lonelyness and replace them with contentment. May he open your eyes to the ones whom have harmed you and left you feeling weak and unloved. May God bless you and keep your heart full of passion for him, your self, friends, family, and those you chose to let in. I pray for peace for all those I care for, because with out peace there would be no love or forgiveness.
- Amen

Pass it on, and maybe take in advisement for your self.

You've paid your dues and you have nothing elese to prove. The the results of your efforts speak for them selves. Don't dirty your hands with idlel,trendy, or high maintenance indulgences like lovers who don't want or even know how to give back or when for that matter.
Take the time to nuture the finer things in your life, that faithfully satisfy multiple senses. Set aside a comfort zone that is meant for your stress relief. Like a home retreat or a mind altering area that can help clear your mind. A place where you can pray and get intouch with what matters most,
Lastly, maintain self confidence, self control, independence, and learn and respect the art of being alone. Because until you can, how can you ever appreciate the company of another.

A little something for everyone

Here is a little advice for the ladies and the gents.
If you guy or girl is walking over your heart you need to put a stop to it. If he or she thinks they can use you and then toss you aside, you need to put your foot down and tell them who the real boss is. If he or she is makeing you feel like everything you are doing is never enough, then tell them that there are plenty of people who will take you as you are. Never let a man or a woman make you feel like you are not enough. Never let them take advantage of your good nature. Never take their crap because onece you do there is no turning back.
Once you find that special person treat them like gold. Tell them how you feel and never underestamate the power of your words. Don't lie about what your doing and never lie about something that will come back to bite you in the ass. Lies get you no where with anyone you care about.
Be honest, kind, loyal, and loving to the men and women in your lives because before you can find that special one for you, you have to appreciate those who are willing to be around you now. -xoxoxo

My friends

The damage is done, so why do we not except the healing to begine? We want to be looked at as strong independent people, but in every person there is a great weakness. We all struggle, but if we keep it tucked away inside where no one can see, there for they can not help, how is that helping us at all? We should share our fears, dreams, and misunderstandings with the people who we know will never turn their backs. Opening up is a very hard thing for some of us to do, but we must do it in order to grow in our faith and in our selves. As MLK Jr onece said " none violence none violence," I think that with out a little violence and conflict we all would be holding on to things or people we know we should let go of. God wants us to love thy neighbor and forgive thy enemy, but that can be hard for some of us to do if we can't do it for our selves first. So the next time you are hurting share because if you don't how can anyone help? The next time you feel like you are falling, reach out because there will always be someone to pull you back. The next time someone reaches out for you, reach back because if not you will find your self roaming alone. Remember this my friends love can fade but, friendship, loyalty, and trust will never fade from those who truly are your friends.

Thoughts on thoughts

People change and everthing stays the same, but how will we ever forget all the pain? We try to be strong and we try to move on, but is it ever really worth our worth? We say we forgive and we say we understand, but we are only human, so how can we really understand the human condition? So keep your hearts pure and never let the unseen hate and torment out on to those who un-willingly let you into their hearts and thoughts. Your words can cut and your actions can leave unforgiveable scars but know this, if you love with out doubt and with out fear you will never hurt those you keep you near. So to the people I adore I love you all freely and with out want.