The count down begins!

Wow, It just hit me, there are only 19 days until I am 28. Where does the time go, and why am I not where I want to be in my life by now? I see all these people who have the things I want, but they are not happy or greatfull for what they have and it makes me mad. I think I am a good person. No, I know I am a good person, so why can't I have what I want? Why can't the people like me get what they want out of life? There are no answers for these questions, so I guess I will have to wait just like everyone. Else.
To all the people who are waiting for something that they have not found, don't give up! Don't let what you don't have rule you because if you do, you might lose yourself. Make 2009 a year of longlasting hope, love, and friendship. Don't force people to be in your life, if they want to go let them go! Keep your friends close because if you keep pushing them away, you are the one who will suffer not them. Pick up the phone and say hi just because, not because you feel you have an obligation!
So, to my friends I love you but don't forget the phone works both ways. To others don't forget about the ones who were there for you, because you never know when you might need them again.

Why Can't Love be?

Friendships and Relationships should not be hard and I am tired of feeling like what ever I do or say is never enough. I also have friends who can't figure out why their love is not enough. You can love and give so much to a person and before you realize what's happened, you have given them all you have to give. Once you have done that what else is left? Nothing, just and empty shell of a loveless or even hateful feelings for your self and even that person. Men don't understand that the love of a woman and a good woman at that,can make there lives much better. The love of a woman is a great and powerfull thing. I don't care if its the love from a female friend or from a woman you are dating it still runs very deep. When women love men regardless of their situation or status in that mans life, they can't just cut it off. I, like the many women that I know, love deeply and it can turn into hate if pushed or ignored to the point where we can't forgive.
Just a little something I wanted to get of my chest.