3-3-09

my eyes are closed and my heart is open to all the possibilities of life. my heart is full of wonder and pain and i cant find the places where i belong. this is how i feel some times, like i don't fit or cant find my own space in life. day after day i ponder all the ways i can make things better. i wonder if i made the wrong choices or even picked the wrong people to be in my life. i count the number of mistakes and regrets that i have and i must say there are not that many, but enough to make me wonder. I am happy, don't miss read but i am so confused about life and all that has happened or all that i have gone through. it is soo hard for me to trust when i have been hurt soo many times in the past. i think about all the things that i have done wrong, and i know that i have done wrong, but i am only human. i will make mistakes along the way on this hard road that we call life, but i will be the first one to say that i am sorry. there will be a time when i might cry but hey i am thats me and sometimes a good cry is good for the soul. if you know me and really know me, you will know that i am not depressed i am just speaking from my heart and from my inner most self.
xoxoxo-love life