Life

Life is funny sometimes. Just when you think you are good, life gives you hell. I mean, for my self I have been about 50/50. Some days I feel like crying and other days I feel great. But lately I have had more of the sad lost feeling. I had someone that I love hurt my feelings a few days ago and it has really gotten to me. I am trying to move past it but it was a very deep cut.
I try to have a happy face for those around me but if you know me, you can tell the difference. I don't like to bring others down with my problem because I know my friends and family have their own to deal with. I am a or I try to be good but sometimes I have those days when I just don't give a damn. And sometimes I think that's ok.
While I was trying to fix my pain, I ran into someone I have not seen in about 3yrs. I must say seeing him put bad thoughts into my brain. We got along well for the most part but the tention between us could sway me anyday. I knew that I did not want to start anything that I was too chicken to finish. But part of me, was like what's the worse that could happen? I could get hurt that's what could happen. But I am already hurting so what's one more pain to handle right now. But I kept me cool but boy oh boy I took it as far as my mind would let me.
Like I said before life can be very tempting. It can be hard but we have to decide how we want to deal.
So if you need to yell, then my dear yell your hearts out. If you want to cry, cry untill you run dry. And if you want to give in to what you know you should not, just be safe about it.
Right now I have tears in my eyes and I don't know why.
Xoxo