My friend

It has been awhile since I have been on here, but to be honest I have not had much to say. I have been going through a lot with one of my friends and trying to figure out what to do about what's going on. He is lost in his own world and he does not know up from down. We have been spending time together, talking, laughing and just clearing the air, but he is still keeping something major from me. It bothers me because we tell each other everything in our lives or at at least I thought we did. I don't keep anything from him no matter how painfull it might be. He is like my living journal. So why does he feel the need to keep me in the dark and keep me worried about him? Why can't men be like women and just talk about their feelings? I guess if they did that they wouild thing of them selves as being weak. If find it funny tho, because for someone who is keep something from me has no problem with coming to my place at random hours waking me from my slumber because he can't sleep. I don't mind because my door is always open to my friends just like my phone is always on also.
I don't know what the future holds for our friendship but I do know this, I love him, I care about his heart, and his soul and there's nothing that I would not do for him or anyone of my friends who needs me. I just hope he knows that no matter what I will always be there for him as he has been there for me.
So I say this never take a friend for granted and never make them feel unwanted. Never push your self on them either, because they might just tell you what you don't want to hear.
I learned this with my friend. I am there for him. I am his shelter from his fears and I am his bff. I never judge and I am always understanding no matter how tired I might be. For my friends who really need to talk there is no such thing as calling to late.
Xoxoxo