27 years

As i look back over the past 27 years of my life, i realized that i have not done most of the things that i thought i would have done by now. traveling is one of those things and i must say that the only one i have stayed true to. I think that's they only thing i knew i would be doing at this point. I just did not know that i would be doing it alone.

I looked at some of the changes that i have made and realized that i am kind of happy that i am not where i thought i would be. I think that if not for some of the bad, i would be in a place where there would be no happiness. Where i would probably be a smoker and more of a drinker. I also know that the "too nice Tiffany" would no longer exist.

I thought i would be married by now, and i could have been but that would have been the most hateful and abusive marriage. I thought i would have kids by now and i would have had kids but i would not have wanted them to grow up in that kind of house hold. I would still be working and that's the only thing that i would be happy about. I would still have my faith in god but i would always be asking why.

I think it is funny how life can change in a blink of an eye. I mean all it took was one day a few years ago to change how my life is today. Do i regret what happened? I do but when i think about what could have been i am sorry to say i don't. Am i sorry that i finally stood up for myself not knowing what was going to happen next? No, because i am not a fighting person but when you push me too hard and too far i push back. If i could go back and do it all over again would i? Yes, because with out those experiences i would not be me. I would not be the person that stands up for her self and i would not know the people who have come into my life since.

So, 27 years and i have lived through pain,loss,deep depression, abuse, and a loveless heart. I have found out who i truly am and the kind of woman that i want to be but if not for those things i don't know if i could say that.

So, look back over your life and ask your self are you at the place where you thought you would be? Are you happy at this point in your life? Are there any significant things that happened to you, that made you the person that you are today?